This week has def. been a challenge. My sweet or not so sweet at times Dee had a heart attack... she is very very sick, but is really trying to hang on and be strong. I will never forget looking in to her eyes when she was laying in the bed and telling her to hang on and that i LOVE her sooo much. She could not talk and was fading in and out of consciousness, but she squeezed my hand. It makes me cry just thinking about it! We had just talked about her getting to see my walk down the isle and have babies the day before... i hope she never forgets those talks we have!!
When she is laying in the bed at the hospital, i remember all the sweet times i have had with her. She would swim, play, watch movies, go shopping with all of us before she had her aneurysm. Then i think about the times after her aneurysm... all the times she has made us laugh because of her honesty. or the time that she wanted me to wear her fur coat to alex's football game, and got her feelings hurt because i wouldn't... or the time that we pulled up in the drive way and she was smoking a cigarette, had tennis shoes on, hair not brushed, but def. was rocking the fur coat! Goodness she makes me laugh...
I often criticize those who make choices for dee because i don't think they have made the best choices for her and her living situation, but when i really sit back and see whats going on that woman is HAPPY and not ready to go home yet. I cherish these times with her... i love rubbing lotion on her skin... and i love it when she makes weird faces at the nurses because we all know she is not the biggest fan of women!
She is such a fighter! I want to be like her really! So strong and never backs down!
She is one TOUGH lady. I pray she makes it through these HARD TIMES! I am not sure how much more the Cowen family can handle... the last 6 months have been so different for all of us!
My friends and my families friends have been awesome! I am sooooooo BLESSED with AMAZING people! I am so thankful!!! Thank you all who have called, text, or fbed me or my family. I truly believe that prayer is sooo powerful! So BE STRONG DEEEEE we love you!!
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