Claws, paws, antlers, sleeppppp, PINK, and heavy hearts

Well this week and weekend have been filled with fun, sleep, victory dances, love, hugs, and tears!

I have come to the realization that life is never going t be easy (whoever says life is easy is fullllll offffff crap), but it is how you deal with the tough things that make life worth it and give it meaning. I started reading a YA book which is young adult literature, and since I am a reading teacher I try to read things my kids would like to read. This book is about a girl that lives in a school bus and her mom is a prostitute, but she finds HOPE in everything she does. She wants to be a lawyer too (another reason i like her... who is to say one day i don't go to law school and become some big wig lawyer...you never know riiighhtt) I have fallen in love with the girl in the book because I think it is so important to find HOPE in everything I do. There are days where I literally wonder what in the WORD am I teaching for, or I wonder... WHY in the world have I done this or THAT, or I have seriously just WASTED my time doing this or that... and I am slowly learning that NOTHING or NO ONE is a WASTE of time. There is always something GOOD that can come out of everything. I have learned that people come and go in and out my life for many reasons... the coming out part always hurts, but what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger riiiighttt. I have also learned the easiest path is not always the RIGHT path, and I will admit sometimes I want to go back to old things just to make life easier. Butttt I do have to say... I have continued to be strong and follow the RIGHT PATH... Over the past year I have had many ups and downs, but I have never stopped and looked at how much I have grown and overcome( I actually completed 7 loads of laundry this week and CLEANED my shower with a toothbrush i might add...this is an accomplishment for me). I have been truly blessed with such sweeeeet people in my life to help me become who I am today... thank you guys for being such a huge part of my life :)

If someone tries to judge you based on what you make...

I wanted to share this video because it has just been one of those extremely trying weeks at school... one of my college friends posted this video and it truly made me realize what I do and why I do what I do.... the video is three minutes long and uses a few not so nice words, but I fell in love with this video and absolutely can relate to the message that he is trying to get across!!! So next time someone "dogs" teachers (something my kids would say) I will use this guy's line... pretty powerful message if you ask me!!!




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxsOVK4syxU&feature=player_embedded


Love you all!

i promise it is the small things...

This week has gone by very fast and of course the weekend goes by even faster. i have been reminded this week that it is the small things that really make me truly HAPPY. In the past I had a parent conference, a two hour training, worked two 11 hour days, and tutored a WHOPPING 26 kids (when i make a promise to my kids at the beginning of the year that they won't fail... i truly mean it. Also people tell me that you can't save every child... i disagree I work extremely hard to "SAVE" everyone of mine) Anyways... i also taught three cheer classes (and today's was rough with rolling eyes, mean faces, and hurtful words to one another.. All that being said, i am a bit tired. i sometimes feel that i am on a never ending treadmill, and i can't get off. ps. i wish i REALLY felt that way when i was really on a treadmill... i have not problem stopping after a few miles! but... it is like there is always something to WORRY about or WONDER about. My mind and body are both already tired, but when i get ready to start to cry or maybe even want to give up i think of all the SWEET things that go on in my life and everyday at my job.

Here are some small but SWEET things made me happy through this tiring week:

1. Nee went 4 for 6 this weekend and bounced two balls of the wall.
2. Annie Marshall's midnight talk
3. Being able to dance like a maniac in the middle of the dance floor completely sober and not caring who was watching
4. Yelling "I am bullet Proof" and my neighbors being able to hear me (we might get kicked out but i dont care)
5. Getting to JACKET alllll dayyyyy long!!! 70 is cold to me... i am anemic!
6. Listening to WEEZZZY Baby with Reed (maybe not the most appropriate music, but i love our convo's about music...we are def. the smart ones of the fam)
7. Dinner with my dad this afternoon!
8. Sweet notes from my kiddos (they even still fold them the way i used to when i was in middle school)
9. Sunday trips to my favorit store in the world TARGET!!!!!!!

xoxo

JC

Cake Balls, Pink Rainbows, Comped Bar Tabs, and HEE HAAASS

Well I can't believe we are already 1 week away from pay day... this means that October is almost here (my favorite month of the year) I believe this October is going to be sweetness!
1. It is my bday month (even though my bash this year will be in November and will be much better than last years bday which was pure HELL... good TIMES)
2. Competition season starts
3. Halloween
4. STATE FAIR
5. first 6 weeks of school is almost over
6. bowie ballerz-is going to win lots in fantasy football
7. lets all pray the cowboys will have a better month too


My principle asked me this week when i was going to start grad school... funny he asked because I have been looking at different grad school programs. I signed up to take my GRE too! I have been thinking that maybe next fall i will start a grad school program that is not in the DFDUB... maybe go back to college station, Texas, or for some reason i think living in Florida or the mountains for a year would be pretty awesome! I sorta want to take a year off from teaching and just focus on grad school and get it over with. I am not sure if this would ever happen, but what do i have holding me back? I might even follow Nee to her school jkjk! I just think it would be fun to get a way for a year. I am not sure if i could give up teaching for a year but it could happen. maybe it could be my livin on the edge part of my life for a year or my almost quarter life crisis... i dont know!!!

This weekend was one of the BEST
1. cake balls...who buys 10 dollars worth of cake balls... MANDI! lol they were yummy but i mean really
1. Pink rainbows- this is the only wine i remember tasting at the wine tasting dont ask me whyyy
2. comped bar tab- well that is a long story
3. heee haassss- made me almost pee in my pants because i was laughing so hard!!!

love you all

JC

the cards you have been dealt with

I often tell my kids @ school or at the gym that "these are the cards you have been dealt with.... so DEAL with it" I always tell them that I don't really care to hear their sob stories because believe it or not we all have them. Some worse than others but that is just life... I try to make them strong and let them know that just because you have a daddy in jail, a mom that works two jobs, or you have been deeply hurt does not mean you can't give a 100 percent and do you best everyday... So this past week I have been dealt with

1. missing my sister a lot. I hate not having her here. I hate not seeing her play ball every week... i hate it
2. my car getting broken into then being late to school and for once all my tutoring kiddos show up, and I am not there...
3. having to wait in line 2.5 hrs at the DPS with some not so nice people
4. having to rely on my parents to get money out for me because my debit card was stolen
5. a good friend hurting my feelings
6. driving down 75 with one of my sweeeet friends throwing up out my window and trying to communicate with me but couldn't i felt horrible but could't stop
7. meeting someone during duty telling me she lost her mother 2 months ago, moved to irving and is now living with her dad who has 9 children and had only met her dad a few tmes.
8. immature parents @ they gym (yes I SAID it... it is time to grow up or find a new team!!!)
9. being single for about a year now and just realizing that life does keep moving on... i always wonder why God puts someone in our lives just to take them out


It has been a rough week and weekend for me. I usually NEVER EVER have bad weeks much less tough weekends. Sometimes I guess we have t have tough weekends to re-evaluate our lives. I am usually happy upbeat and try not to let anything bother me. I guess I always just deal with what I have been dealt with.... but sometimes we break. Maybe I shouldn't be so tough on my kids allll the time. Maybe they need a melt down once in a while. I can say that through the week and weekend... i have a huge support system. My sweet close friends and family are always there. Whether its to make me laugh, cry with me, send me weird funny videos, invite me to eat with them, or clean up throw up off my car while I am sleeping... you all are truly amazing! Thank you for shaping and making me who I am today

But She is Just Like a Maze

You would think @ 23 years old that I would have maybe figured out what I want in life or better yet who I really am... but it has yet to happen. Sometimes I am in total shock of the things i do... i mean REALLY!! I used to be embarrassed to say that I quite haven't figured all that out yet, but lately I have come to the conclusion that it really doesn't matter. Like it really is okay to roll into school blaring My Dougie or Lil Wayne... Or my fav... singing America the beautiful so loud that the neighbors can hear me and thinking that it is fruited grains instead of plains! OR... wearing Christmas shirts to cheer practice and Cheri making fun of me ps. It was rough night and morning) So rough I almost threw up during FLIGHT SCHOOL anyways... I mean who said life had to be so serious allll the time! Don't get me wrong we all need structure, but I have finally realized that CRAP does happen... and it will be okay!!! Life is to short not to enjoy it... I am okay with being like a "Maze" right now, and I really not concerned with what others have to say about who I am :)




Anyways... I totally survived the first week of school with 6th graders!!!! I hate to say this but they are precious (and yes i have already knocked on wood) I did take several naps after I got home but it is all good... I miss my Lamar friends, but I truly love the people at Bowie. So many times I get this weird look about switching schools, but I truly feel blessed to be working where so many people love the kids!

I also finished my first draft today... football will have a whole new meaning in my life this year. I won't be able to just watch the cboysssss!


loveeee you!

We Will Win

Well....

I have my black polo washed (well sorta... its in the washer now), my khaki skirt ironed, and my tory burch's ready to go!!! I have probably worked more than 20 hours on my new room, and I have spent the last two hours trying to find a motivational clip and the perfect song for my lesson tomorrow. i found a clip a football one of course!! I am still trying to decided on a song... and I HAVE to have a song... because my first day won't be complete with out MUSIC!!!My motto this year for my students and myself is WE WILL WIN! (Yes this is the same motto that Mac used when they used to be horrible at football and then all of a sudden had a winning season.) but... I think this is a pretty sweeeeet motto for my students and me.

I sometimes wonder why in the WORLD do I put so much time, money and effort in to teaching. I mean I could really do anything I WANT with my life and I chose to teach... I have already had a break down, dug into my savings for some school stuff, dripped with sweat working in my room, dodged roaches and crickets, fell of a table, and I have even cried (surprise surprise). The worst part is I have yet to even see kids! Then I remember all the sweet emails, sweet notes, laughs,HUGS, and SMILES that come with my job. (plus i get a TON of holidays off) haaa! After watching a 10000 clips and listening to a 10000 songs for tomorrow, I realize that I have one of the BEST jobs in the world. I get to make a difference in a kid's life that might not have a mom, a dad, a brother, a sister, or a friend. I can't wait to see what is in store for me this year.

soo BRING on my 6 graders and the 2010-2011 school year


love you all!!!